Wednesday, July 14, 2010

Love is in the Air??



April 2005 - September 2005

How do you know when you are in love?

Your heart skip a beat when you think of that person?
Thinking of that person makes you smile?
You think of that person when you wake up and when you go to sleep?
You can't wait to tell that person even the small trivial stuff that happens to you?
You can't wait to talk or see that person?

How do you really know when you are in love?

IVY - It has been going on for months. From emails to SMSes to phone calls, my life has changed completely. Everyday, I look forward to his long emails. And in return I write back long emails. Then we added sms into our routine. And then we added phone calls.

Malaysia and USA is a thousand and miles apart. Infact complete opposites. Day and Night. When I am in the day, he is in the night and vice versa. But yet we found the perfect sweet spot to be with each other. Everything seems so natural. And we just fell into the rhythm.

He calls me up in his evening. He writes email to me during his night. I received it in my morning. I write to him and he receives it before he sleeps. I call him in my evening to wake him up and then I write him an email before I sleep. He gets the email in his morning. And then it is his evening, he calls me to wake me up........And the routine will start all over again everyday.

Haha, it may sound confusing to people outside (cos my friends could never ever get the day and night right) but to us, it became our lives. I wake up to his call, I receive his emails when I am at work, when I get home from work - I call to wake him up or he calls me when he wakes up and then he calls me before I sleep. A day in my life :)

But how do you know that there is something more than just friendship? We are thousand of miles apart??!! We don't get to see each other. We only read and hear each other. And yet, I feel so close to this person.
I feel him, I trust him, I know him and deep down I know I am beginning to fall for him.

I remember I was in Bangkok in July 2005 and had a blast celebrating Mira's hen's night with Deb, Sooks and Petrina. It was a 3 days 2 nights trip, the first trip away whereby we did not call each other due to the roaming charges. So the whole trip, we were texting each other. I remember I told the girls, I feel something special with this "guy" I met in Dallas. It was my first time actually saying it aloud and admitting something special happening with me and this "guy" who is ten thousand miles away. And like teenagers, my girlfriends and I giggled the night away.

But we were thousand of miles apart? Could this be love?



JEH : Writing and emailing to Ivy is something that I look forward to everyday. There is a feeling of joy and a sensation of completeness whenever I get something from her.....even a little sms message. The more frequent the communication go back and forth, the stronger the intensity of our feeling towards each other. It is the instance that I miss the email, calls and sms that I know that I have feeling towards her.

I remember the first time she travelled out of the country to Bangkok with her friends. We were not able to talk to each other only just sms. I just wanted to know everything she is doing over there and things starts to heat up and we started to flirt along the line that we "like" each other. I think that was the first time that I felt that there is something building up that is beyond friendship.

But there is also hesitation. Questions pop up in my head asking if I am doing the right thing? How can one have a relationship so long distance and yet survive? How can someone win over a girl's heart when he is not physically there? How How How?

The feeling is stronger that the logic....Love is in the Air? Grab it and put it in your heart. I learnt to trust my own feelings.